Why I Write These:
This is an initiative I started in 2018 to begin documenting my life better. It’s meant to be a snapshot of a day both for public disclosure of what is going on, both good and hard things in my life. It also serves as a record that I hope to be able to look back on in future years. This concept was inspired by my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
Psalm 54:4 says: “Surely God is my help, the Lord is the one who sustains me.”
Sometimes simplest thoughts are the best about God and it is good to just remember who He is and what He does for us. At the end of a week, I must throw myself on Him. If He doesn’t sustain me, then nothing else will. I have no illusions of my own power being enough to keep my weary heart alive.
Also, this verse is just a great argument for why women should be so respected. That “help” word is the root word of “helper” that is used to described Eve in the Garden of Eden. Women aren’t weak. Not at all. Yes, they’re different. But if we ever think women ought to be confined to the kitchen and wash room, then we’re missing out. I think Biblically, women ought to be the primary caretaker of the house. But that’s not all they are. They sustain. The world would rapidly deteriorate without Godly women silently picking it back up time after time after time.
Favorite meeting of the day:
I can’t beat my Friday morning discipleship. It’s incredibly rewarding, and I hardly do anything! I read the Bible with someone and I’m watching their life change.
Today my friend, Yan, told me that (roughly paraphrased): “I feel like I am beginning to see for the first time.” Oh my. If that doesn’t give you chills, then I encourage you to look up the similar Biblical language and think what that might mean.
He’s reading the Word, and he’s eager to not be like his father. The Lord seems to be stirring and I am just awed at the simple way the Lord allows me to witness the transformation I’m watching. It’s cool.
Hardest part of my day:
Just feeling pressed for time. I don’t feel like I got through all my work. But I really do feel like I busted my butt today to try and get things done. I hope clients stay patient, and I hope I’m able to honor the Lord with my work. But there just isn’t enough hours in the day.
I’m also so slow on beginning to realize that I think this is how life will always be. I’m not sure that the Lord’s will is for you to blissfully reach some state of life where you breathe a deep breathe and relax for good. I think He means for us to work the vineyards for however long we can until He returns. There’s a parable about that, so seems pretty Biblical to me.
Favorite moment of the day:
Realizing my headphones had a speaker in them, so that in coffee shops I can talk on my phone without feeling super awkward. What a simple joy that I learned on the fly! But I really appreciate. I need to text my sister tomorrow and thank her for the gift. Those headphones are quite amazing, and I felt kind of cool and businesslike to be able to take a call like that in the midst of a busy coffee shop. 🙂
What was the weather like today?:
A turn back towards cold. That’s Arkansas for you. It’s predictable in that way. It wasn’t too bad, but definitely still a bit chilly even with a solid jacket on. A bit wet as well. It didn’t rain on me at any point, but it just felt damp.
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
I was listening to a girl while I was a at a coffee shop — I should clarify that she really gave me no option but to listen to her — gossip and slander her ex-boyfriend all while saying she cared about him and regretted how things ended.
I then proceeded to text a friend telling him about the conversation and thus ensued in gossip. I decided I needed to pray for her as I was leaving, and prayed that she would really pursue Christ. Not just nominally, as it seemed, but that this would drive her to real understanding of Him.
But I am not to be one who gossips. I laughed at what she was saying with a friend, which hardly puts me in any kind of positive comparison to her.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – Numbers 5 & 6
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – Read a chapter of this today and, man, it is so good! I teared up reading it. I just realized that Pastors must always give the benefit of a doubt to someone offering them corrective input. Instead of being defense, we must listen, and genuinely attempt to see if what they have said is true. Also, we must always preach to ourselves before we really preach to others. We’re in need of the same grace as others.
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today. It will be a periodical read at best.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – No reading on this today, but his point about sin being our primary need to be fixed each and every day has been fueling my prayer life recently. It even made everything click into place for my next Living Sacrifices lesson, which I think may be my most powerful one to date.
On the Incarnation by Athanasius – Just about to read the first chapter. But I’m trying to read more classics. So, here I go!
What was for dinner?:
Chick-Fil-A. Had a club chicken sandwich with waffle fries, Dr. Pepper, and an ice cream to top it off. And I only had to pay for the ice cream cone! Perks of volunteering for Friday Night Out, although hardly why I do that.
Song of the day:
You Alone Can Rescue by Matt Redman – Not sure this needs explanation. Go read my Bible verse above and it’ll all make sense. I have no other anchor so capable of grounding and preserving me in this storm of a life. None.
Prayer of the day:
“And the name of the city from that time on will be: THE LORD IS THERE.” — Ezekiel 48:35. I don’t care where that city is. Take me there.
Prayer of the day:
Lord, you’ve built a city and even though you are with us, you truly reside there waiting for the right time. Lord, there is a river running from there and I need to be planted alongside that river as I grow and flourish and point more and more to my true home. Prepare my heart to enter gladly into those courts with thanksgiving in my heart. For where you are, there I must be. And there I also want to be.