Daily Diary – 2/21/18

Why I Write These:

This is an initiative I started in 2018 to begin documenting my life better. It’s meant to be a snapshot of a day both for public disclosure of what is going on, both good and hard things in my life. It also serves as a record that I hope to be able to look back on in future years. This concept was inspired by my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.

Daily Highlights:

Godly thought of the day:

Joshua 3:5 says: “Joshua told the people, “Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.”

Between this and the fact that the Israelites couldn’t even be within a thousand yards of the ark of the covenant as it approached the Jordan, who is man to think that we shouldn’t be consecrating ourselves as the Lord plans to act?

Seriously, a thousand yards. Let’s just put that into perspective. That’s 10 football fields away. I mean, you would barely be able to see at that distance in any meaningful way. The Lord is holy. Let us consecrate ourselves and not make the mistake of assuming we’re worthy to be in His presence. He does allow us to come into His presence through the work of our great High Priest. But frankly, we’re insane if we’re not similarly trying to consecrate our lives towards a pattern that pleases the Lord.

Favorite meeting of the day:

Had a great meeting with Dusty Pruitt as he ate some Chipotle. Just good to catch up with him as I worked and he ate. He was feeling really good after being really sick for most of 2018. Not just February, but all of 2018. We had some good discussion about prayer and all that. It was encouraging to spend some time catching up with him! Totally unplanned, but heartening.

Hardest part of my day:

Youth group got cancelled tonight due to some potential weather conditions that would have left the roads not very safe to be driving on.

That was difficult on me because all the sudden it leaves me with an entire evening that is unplanned and I’m not sure what to do with it. Idle time is always something I have to be watchful over as I have had patterns of unfaithfulness in my life that correlate to that strongly. Additionally, I was going to teach the lesson and kind of crammed it in to get it done in a way where I thought it would be most helpful to the students and not be overly rushed.

So it was a bit draining to have the evening unplanned and feel like that time was wasted. I don’t think it was really wasted, but at the same time it felt that way.

Favorite moment of the day:

Getting my taxes done and realizing that I think I’m going to have some extra money to put towards reserve funds for savings, paying of student loans, and other things! I am thrilled to see how things are working out and how God is working.

2018 is the year I want to get my finances in order. In some ways, this is also a step towards having a household managed that would also qualify me to manage the Lord’s house — the church. It’s a qualification for Elder, and I need to take seriously my own house before I dare try to care for His.

What was the weather like today?:

Rainy again. But really cold today. Not nearly as enjoyable as yesterday. Rainy and warm is better than rainy and cold. Recently, I’ve felt more cold-blooded than I ever remember being. I’m not sure what that’s about. Maybe it is just getting older, but I shake more when it is cold and don’t stay as warm. So cold is not my favorite. But I can still tough it out without feeling too awful, and I do like to act tough! 😉

Most unfaithful moment of my day:

Not getting up and going to the gym yesterday. My sleep patterns really got off yesterday with all the weird sleep I fell into last night, and then I got to bed at 1AM and slept until 7:30. It was just weird.

I need to keep my rhythms of rest consistent. I feel way more out of whack when I don’t.

What am I currently reading?:

Daily Bible Reading – Numbers 16-18

Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this today.

Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today. It will be a periodical read at best.

Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – He really laid the hammer down on addictions today! He called them out for the idolatry that they are. The most convicting thing I read was that when I reject God to pursue my own idols, I effectively choose to love Satan and evil at that moment. I’d never thought about it so viscerally before, but I’ve loved Satan too many times before. That thought helped keep my evening pure because I don’t really love him and I’ve already given him too much. I don’t want him to have any more, if I can help it.

On the Incarnation by Athanasius – I may read some of this tonight as I go to bed. It depends on how time is looking.

No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this today.

What was for dinner?:

Fajita leftovers and water. Tasty!

Song of the day:

Christ the Sure and Steady Anchor by Matt Boswell – In all these tempests, storms, waves, and winds of doubt, Christ runs so deep. Even when I think I haven’t put Him down as deeply as I ought to have, I always find Him deep enough of His own accord to keep my tiny little ship from just being blown away in this turbulent life.

Quote of the day:

“That monkey you’re playing with right now, is gonna be the monster that can derail your ministry if you don’t watch yourself and the doctrine.” — Edward K. Copeland

I’m actually going to let this quote sit for another day because it has meant that much to me. I don’t necessarily advise this, but if you look up Travis the monkey you’ll likely see the reports of what he did and you can see what he did to the face and hands of the victim that he tore into.

Again, I don’t necessarily advise it. It is graphic. Very, very graphic. But I did look at it just long enough. And it has unsettled me of how ugly sin is. To think about that face torn to shreds and to compare that to what sin can do to a ministry — it is haunting.

Every time I have thought about it in the past few days, a pit has opened in my stomach and I realize I want to avoid that more than anything in my life. I may never forget the face of that victim, and it will always remind me of the ravaging effects of sin.

Prayer of the day:

Oh Christ, my sure and steady anchor. Help me to be consecrated to you. Lord, this storm that rages around me will be stopped up in a heap, just as you stopped up the Jordan so the Israelites could cross over into the promised land you had given to them. Lord, help me to be preparing my life in such a way that when your mighty acts are done, I will not find myself allied with the pagan cultures of the Canaanites but boldly crossing over on dry ground to inherit the promise you have told us you will secure for us as the 2nd and better Joshua.  

Amen.

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