Daily Diary – 2/28/18

Why I Write These:

This is an initiative I started in 2018 to begin documenting my life better. It’s meant to be a snapshot of a day both for public disclosure of what is going on, both good and hard things in my life. It also serves as a record that I hope to be able to look back on in future years. This concept was inspired by my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.

Daily Highlights:

Godly thought of the day:

Joshua 9:14 says: “The men of Israel sampled there provisions but did not inquire of the Lord.”

The pivotal moment and true catalyst for Israel’s failed ability to purge the land and live in the blessing that God was giving them. I cannot get over how much I’ve been learning recently that to presume you know God’s will is so often to find yourself opposed to God’s will. We must always be inquiring about the Lord’s will for our life, and sometimes this won’t mean He says “Take this job, not that one.” But He may give me a pretty clear, “You can take either job, and remember to love me and love your neighbor while you’re at it.”

But we must fall upon the authority of wisdom as revealed through scripture to us. One practical way that is weird is to use this to battle sin. How often do I sit back in the midst of temptation and go, “Lord, what’s your will here?” I imagine if I did that earnestly, He’d come thundering in with a “Get out of there! Don’t give in. Put that wretched desire to death!” And if I was really willing to ask, I feel that I may actually just listen.

But so many times I fail in my speech, in life, in love, in faith, and in purity not because I don’t know what God’s word said but because, in a moment, I forgot to inquire of the Lord how I might serve Him in that moment.

Favorite meeting of the day:

Got to have some one on one time with Sam Knecht this morning at Rick’s Bakery! I almost forgot about it because it felt like so long ago due to the length of the day. But it was really good to get to know him. I appreciate Sam. Earnest is a word that describes to him. I feel that he is without pretense, and I appreciate that. He also knows what Likert scales are. So that makes him cool.

Hardest part of my day:

Had a friend cancel lunch on me today. Really, reschedule lunch is a better term. They were kind to text me ahead of time and let me know. So I wasn’t caught off guard, but it really threw my day into dysphoria. While I understood their request and even had no problem being gracious towards it, it did remind me how much disorder can throw our lives into chaos. I had my day mostly mapped out into a sequence of events that I was ready for and to have that fall apart left me in kind of a conundrum that sapped energy from the day. But the Lord was faithful to help direct my footsteps and kept me faithful during the day.

Favorite moment of the day:

Samuel is born! Seth and Hannah White had a baby today. I am praying for that child. He may need heart surgery, and at the beginning of his life. He’s hooked up to hooks and wires and so much more. But he’s alive! I pray the Lord frees Him from those tubes and places a tube from the Lord into his life, so that Samuel can see how he is a miracle of God’s grace and can give praise to God just by merely existing.

What was the weather like today?:

Rain. Yes, more rain.

Most unfaithful moment of my day:

I feel like I had a good day! I know I sinned. There were thoughts that most definitely didn’t get held captive. But even in many small ways, I feel that I’ve made small, but pivotal decisions to be faithful. For example, I wanted to leave Mama Carmen’s to go home and read the afternoon, but went to a client’s to work unexpectedly. I really, really wanted to get Taco Bell after church, but ate a banana and cottage cheese instead. I want to get back into some better shape. I’ve got too much of a belly right now. Winter is the worst. Anyways, I know I wasn’t perfect. But I also want to rejoice when there is a day that I feel is walked in step with the Spirit even in the more mundane things.

What am I currently reading?:

Daily Bible Reading – Numbers 34-36

Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this today.

Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.

Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – No reading for this today.

On the Incarnation by Athanasius – I will read this before bed tonight.

No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this today.

Cursor’s Fury by Jim Butcher – Gotta give this guy credit! His stories have me enticed. And he’s kept the sexuality to a minimum that is referenced as happening off screen, which does not get my brain excited in a way it shouldn’t. I’m thankful for that. I fear how many books I may have to put down if they can’t do that, and I’d rather finish this series, Lord willing.

What was for dinner?:

Banana and cottage cheese. No, it’s not sexy. But after that and a 1,000 jump rope reps I feel that I had a healthy day. And I want to shed a few of these pounds. I don’t need to be a man who has a six-pack abdomen, but I also don’t even want to give in too much to my unhealthy, indulgent side. Sometimes a bit of a fasting type of meal is the right decision since I know that, at times, I will feast and enjoy God’s bounty.

Song of the day:

By Faith by Keith and Kristen Getty – We will stand as children of the promise. A promise of the great I AM. What a God. Simple faith, given to us as a gift by the work of His spirit, preserves us and changes our desires to love our Lord. And we fix our eyes on Him and make our way home.

Quote of the day:

“How we speak to one another has a physical, tangible effect on the lives of others.” — Sam Knecht

Kind of paraphrasing him, but I believe this is close to what he said. I found it a good and profound reminder that our words have real consequences. We ought to use them to build others up.

Prayer of the day:

Lord, thank you for being one who guides my steps when my plans crumble. Thank you for helping me see your will. Lord, help me to not forget your wisdom and lean on my own understanding, but always go to your for guidance. Apart from you I am lost. Lord, make my speech gracious and loving since it has a real effect on those who come into contact with it. Guide my wandering heart and mind and help me to walk not by the sensory pleasures that I can feel, but by faith that is placed in the living God who is the savior of all men, and especially of those who believe.      


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