Why I Write These:
This is an initiative I started in 2018 to begin documenting my life better. It’s meant to be a snapshot of a day both for public disclosure of what is going on, both good and hard things in my life. It also serves as a record that I hope to be able to look back on in future years. This concept was inspired by my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
1 Timothy 4:15 says: “Practice these things ,immerse yourself in them, so that all may see your progress.”
One one hand, our purpose for doing things as Christians is never to be seen by others. However, if we’re living out our lives faithfully, they will be noticed by others around us. I must dedicate myself to Godliness so and immerse myself in it so that my progress will be evident to all. Whether they say it or not, my life should be exemplary in the faith as I pursue Christ.
Favorite meeting of the day:
Had a great time hiking this morning with Sam Knecht, Guy and Carolyn Wilcox (and their children Eta and Pearl), Daniel and Heather Keene, Andrew Nunn, Anna McKibben, and Michael Gaddy (and his daughters Lucy and Anna). Fun time to be out on the trail and exploring nature with my brothers and sisters in Christ!
Hardest part of my day:
It has just felt like each day the past 3 days I have had a moment where I’ve gotten home and really wanted to give myself over to lust. I have not done it — praise the Lord! But when I got home from the hike, just something felt like it was a gut punch. Each time the past 3 days, I’ve just had a moment where I really want to do that. It’s a false notion of wanting to feel something. I can’t even put my mind on it perfectly. I think part of it was that everyone on the hike was either married or engaged. That’s not easy, and coming back to being by myself just feels hard and giving myself over to lust feels like a momentary answer to that. But each day the past 3 days, I’ve had a specific moment where I’ve been staring at my phone on the brink of going over and have had to say, “No!” Again, thankful that I have been able to do that. That’s progress over where I used to be in my life. But it is hard.
Favorite moment of the day:
Getting up early and going to the gym. I just feel so good after a workout. I left that workout feeling incredibly good and ready for the day with a spring in my step.
What was the weather like today?:
So great! Good enough for a hike, bike ride, and sitting around on a porch with a few brothers. Happy to be alive, and glad to be in community. The time I spent alone today was relatively small.
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
I took a nap when I was home after the hike, which was partly faithful. But I slept a lot longer than I meant to and didn’t do any lesson planning for next Tuesday, which I needed to get more done on today. I can get it done tomorrow, but I should have been more disciplined to attend to my duties.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – Deuteronomy 6-8
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this today.
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – No reading for this tonight.
On the Incarnation by Athanasius – Struck by the idea that Jesus didn’t come and immediately become a sacrifice on our behalf. I never really thought about the fact that He took a lot longer doing that than necessary. But this book helpfully pointed out that, by his life and works, He was making sure He adequetely answered that He was not merely human but also the “God word” in flesh so that when He did His sacrifice we would not mistake His life, death, and resurrection for anything else.
No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this today.
What was for dinner?:
Tiny Tim’s Pizza. The Gaddy’s were eating there and I got to nab a few slices for free, so hard to complain about that!
Song of the day:
The Old Rugged Cross by Chris Rice – The cross, it’s shame and reproach I will gladly bear. Great song about the symbolic nature of what the cross is and helps me remember that I have my own cross to bear.
Quote of the day:
“Nothing proves whether you’re more fit to get married than riding a tandem bike together.” — Guy Wilcox
A rather humorous anecdote about the merits of riding a tandem bike to see how a relatinoship survives. If it does, apparently, then it is a very, very good thing!
Prayer of the day:
Lord, help me to not be a terrible tandem bike partner! I long for you to take these desires from me so that I stop lusting and start giving you full will in my life. It is your work that allows me to will and to act towards you. Please God, continue to do that. Restrain my impulses. Thank you, Lord, for such great community around me! It is a balm which if I were to be without would be an insidious vacuum of emptiness. I could not face that, Lord. I would give up and become nothing. Thank you for brothers and sisters who care and love for me, and how you reveal yourself in them.