Why I Write These:
This is an initiative I started in 2018 to begin documenting my life better. It’s meant to be a snapshot of a day both for public disclosure of what is going on, both good and hard things in my life. It also serves as a record that I hope to be able to look back on in future years. This concept was inspired by my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
1 John 4:18 says: “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”
I’m struck by contrasting this to how the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. But while it is absolutely critical for us to recognize the Lord for exactly what He is, that’s not really where we stop. Yes, we bend the knee to a God who is amazingly transcendent and absolutely terrifying to behold. But He’s not terrifying forever. That’s not where our lives stop. Take Isaiah for example. When he first beholds God in Isaiah 6, he is undone. He knows his uncleanness. He is fearful both in the sense that he understands the reverence due the Lord, but also in the sense that he just legitimately fears for his life. But as you read througout his book, Isaiah, while still recognizing how big God is compared to him, speaks more boldly and as one who has confidence before God.
So I guess my point is just that at some point our fear of God never really gets lost, but is complemented by a love for God that drives out fear that we might be unworthy of Him. That’s pretty cool and something to strive for as a barometer in your life. If you are worried about your status before the Lord, it probably indicates that there is something out of step with Him in your heart. It might mean you’re not saved, or it may just mean you’ve taken your eye off the ball and the Spirit is tugging at your attention. But when your eyes are on Him, you’ll have no room for fear because your love will be perfected and perfect love leaves no room for fear.
Favorite meeting of the day:
I’m going to nominate the meeting of my bed this morning, since I didn’t have any other meetings today. It was great to rest this morning. I love Thursday mornings because they’re my morning where I rest. It’s great.
Hardest part of my day:
Just had a headache most the day and felt kind of tired. It’s been kind of awful. Not sure if sick or just tired and worn out. But it feels like an unnatural headache. Trying to drink lots of water tonight. Has helped some, but not put it away completely.
Favorite moment of the day:
Feeling like I was on top of my game at work. I have worked pretty hard on reporting for one of my largest clients. I hope that it’s making a difference. I feel like I have the necessary information to actually get things done, and so I can be confident giving answers where we’re at and we’re adjusting a lot more midcourse. I feel good about that. Still work to do, but it’s massive improvement.
What was the weather like today?:
Almost hard to remember with my headache. I guess it was pretty nice. I had a heavy coat on and wasn’t quite cold, but not warm either. Just kind of a day?
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
I may have slept a bit later than I really meant to when I was “meeting” with my bed this morning. But I also don’t feel too bad about it? Who knows. I guess it’s something to be considerate of.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – Deuteronomy 23-26
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this today.
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – Just realizing that to help people out who are descending into sin/addictions, you have to know them. Most the time we can’t tell the early part of sinful addicitions because we can’t really tell the subtle differences that lead to those addictions. By the time we recognize it, often it is far too far along and anyone could recognize it. Then you have your work cut out for you. But asking good questions and looking for changes in someone’s pattern is a good way to look for possible sin. You don’t want to go on a witch hunt there, but it’s good to be mindful of things.
On the Incarnation by Athanasius – No reading for this tonight.
No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this today.
Captain’s Fury by Jim Butcher – Finished. Entertaining read. I can’t tell if I’d want to own these books or not. Very happy with the lack of sexual conduct described in this one. They were too busy with battles to even get close to that, and I couldn’t be more thrilled about that!
What was for dinner?:
Gusano’s leftover pizza.
Song of the day:
Shine by Newsboys – Because sometimes you just need a good song to jam to.
Quote of the day:
I can’t think of anything good, so I’ll just quote another Bible verse because I know that’ll be good.
1 John 4:20 says: “If anyone says, “i love God,” yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.”
Well, you heard the man. Faith demands action. It demands love, and loving in the way Christ loved — in spirit and in truth. In word and in deed. If you don’t know how to do these things, do you really know God? John doesn’t think so, and I hear he’s a good person to listen to on the topic.
Prayer of the day:
Lord, headaches are annoying. Be my portion when I’d rather just bury my head in the sand and scream. Thank you for being a good God in all types of moments. I love you.