Why I Write These:
These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
Joshua 24:13 says: “So I gave you a land on which you did not toil and cities you did not build, and you live in them and eat fromvineyards and olive groves that you did not plant.”
As I’ve contemplated this verse, I’m realizing how little I’ve determined for myself. So much of what I have is just a result of external environments acting on me. I’ve honestly decided so little. When I was born. Where I was raised. How I was raised. Where I went to school. My current job. Sure, I guess I’ve tried to steward things well. But that’s just it, I feel like most if not all I’ve ever done has just been trying to be faithful to something much bigger than myself.
And that’s alright. The point is not to try and seize control. It’s to remember who is in control and enjoy the spoils He has given me. God, you are so good! I look around my living room and am awed at the opulence of my living conditions. I chose so little of this. Wow!
Favorite meeting of the day:
Well, all I went to was a funeral today. And yes, I did enjoy it. Not enjoy in the sense that I was giddy with happiness. But funerals remind me that I have such a short time left. I don’t want to waste it being stupid. I am thankful for Luella’s testimony that she left for us to watch. She passed away too early, but she has not left us without something to cling to. We’ll remember her until we see her once moe again as we all worship our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
Hardest part of my day:
Being hungry today. I really, really wanted to eat Slim’s today for supper. But I’m trying to lose weight for a number of reasons. So I chose to eat a banana and cottage cheese. I didn’t like it and it was hard to not run out and get what I wanted. But I have done it. But sitting here with hunger was tempting. I need to learn to be content with less. I am realizing how often I probably feel hungry simply because I constantly overeat and that has to have repercussions for my life.
Favorite moment of the day:
I got called “White Wolf” by someone today. That needs to go down in the halls of time as a great moment. Lol. I could get used to that.
What was the weather like today?:
It was very nice. Got my ladder and cones out and got a nice workout with the shirt off. I like to pretend that will make me less pale than I am. But hopefully with the above diet I referenced, I will actually start looking a bit better with my shirt off. One can dream, right?
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
I rescheduled something again today. I guess because I noted it yesterday, I have a bit of problem with it. But I’ll also be honest that I rescheduled dinner with two girls who are old JBU friends so I could go on a date. Part of me doesn’t want to reschedule with anyone, but I also recognize the higher priority in my life is this. While I don’t mind maintaining friendships with women, but at some poin they just didn’t compare to the opportunity. So I’m conflicted, but that’s the thing that leaps out at me when I considered being unfaithful today. Otherwise, I felt really positive about my Saturday!
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – Joshua 16-18
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – I love, love, love this book. Actually, mom, if you’re reading this I think you should check it out. It’s talking about pastoral cutlure and what’s gone wrong with it. Today was talking about how we’ve somehow created environments where the pastors live separately from the body and they’re afraid to confess how hard something is. They feel they have to be strong for the sake of the entire body.
What a horrible fate we’ve left so many of our pastors to where they live above or outside the body of Christ. They need to be in the epicenter of it. Satan wants nothing more than to tear down a pastor to eat away at a church. So we must surround these men who lead us.
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – I loved how Welch today was talking about how we have to keep a perspective that people who have been sinned against and that’s led them to sin need us to acknowledge that. The world is broken and to pretend otherwise doesn’t help at all. If there’s anything I’m learning in all my current reading it is that listening and asking good questions are two of life’s most important skills. If you develop those things, you’ll be in a much healthier place in life.
On the Incarnation by Athanasius – No reading for this tonight.
No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – Reading this tonight.
What was for dinner?:
In contrast to last night’s dinner, I had cottage cheese and a banana. Not great, but healthy. Breaking fast with breakfast will be great tomorrow.
Song of the day:
Where You Belong/ Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus by Newsboys – “I was used to the cold for so long that I couldn’t feel anything and I shivered and stared like a beggar who won’t lift his hands”
That quote gets me every time. I was so cold. I wouldn’t lift my hands even though I knew I was dying. But like a warm, rushing wind He came in and filled me up and put me where I needed to be. I love Him for that. I’ll always love Him for loving a beggar like me. A stubborn, rebellious beggar.
Quote of the day:
“There’s no way to face death across from Jesus Christ” — J.J. Tartaglia
A rough paraphrase of one of his remarks during the funeral. I very much know what he’s talking about. One of my more vivid memories is being a pallbearer at my grandma’s funeral. I wanted to drop the thing and run away. I think I would have dropped it if I didn’t have anything. Death scares me. Humans flee from it with all of our might if it’s all we know. But Christ makes it a bearable load. It’s a load, of that we should have no doubt. But it’s a load that can be borne.
Prayer of the day:
God, thank you for your promises. You give us such good things. Use my life while I’m here for your purposes.