Why I Write These:
These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
Psalm 46:1 says: “God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble.”
What a balm and what a prayer. God is a strength. He is a refuge. He is somewhere when my enemies encircle me and seek to tear me down. He is a place to find a reservoir where I am able to rise again when it feels that my limbs have no strength left to stand, my lungs have no air left to gasp for breath, and my mind cannot form a thought to save itself.
This is my God and he is ever present in my troubles, working for His good and for His glory and I can trust as one of His chosen ones that this will bode well for me in eternity!
Favorite meeting of the day:
Went to sit with Dale Wright in the hospital. Man, he was so emotional. He’s someone who is not necessarily looking death imminently in the face, but he does have cancer and he is weak. You can tell he has nothing to hide and his thoughts are so intensely on the Lord.
Some cool facts about Dale. He was married once to a lady named Linda and she passed away in the early 00’s (2005?). In 2012, he married a lady named Mary who was starting to suffer from dementia just so he could take care of her. He took Mary floating on the buffalo once just so that she could experience it. He choked up a lot as he told this story, and I got to hold his hand and tear up with him.
He and Linda moved to the area from Plainview, TX. They stayed in the Sunset Motel in Siloam Springs on August 17, 1977 — the same time that Elvis had passed away. Apparently it was all the news when they stopped for the night.
They have a few sons and daughters. I believe they are Gregory, Stephen, Danica, and Courtney. Hopefully I got that wrong. Dale was in tears once again as he considered how he and Linda didn’t take very seriously their faith and how that has effected the faiths of their children. I was able to pray for his kids with him.
We read some Bible passages like Psalms 18 and 46 as well as Ezekiel 47, which Psalm 46 reminded me of. Then we sang Amazing Grace. Dale prayed for my ministry at church.
He’s a sweet brother and kept giving praise to God and was resting sure in God’s sovereignty knowing that his Savior grasped him. Very cool to see, and I was encouraged to get to meet him even if the hospital isn’t the greatest place to meet someone for the first time.
Hardest part of my day:
Had a lot of meetings. Just felt like a chicken on the run most the day. Ended up making it through the day, though.
Favorite moment of the day:
At some point, I just realized that I was very energetic today! Which considering my lack of sleep lately and everything else is kind of amazing. It all ended watching a movie with Guy Wilcox at his house. Man, Guy can make me laugh like very few people he can. He’s funny. I appreciate him. I need to tell him that next time I see him. He’s someone I feel like I can relax around and the jokes are funny without ever being derisive or sinful. It’s just fun as God, I believe, would have intended it.
What was the weather like today?:
Cold. Cold, cold, cold. Although late afternoon was nice. Arkansas is just so all over the place right now. I can’t tell how to dress on a given day.
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
I was talking about some of my hard discipling relationships with Dusty Pruitt and I realized I let a name slip that I didn’t mean to. I need to be very careful when talking about situations that I mean to keep somewhat discreet. I don’t think I was gossipping since the people I’m referring to I am talking to. But, at the same time, I also want to respect that they should be able to share their stories at the times they’d like to.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – Judges 4-6
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this tonight.
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – No reading for this tonight.
On the Incarnation by Athanasius – Athanasius did something really cool where he talked about Christ’s proof over death in two distinctive ways. One, he talked about how Christ’s disciples are trophies of Christ over death in that we, as His disciples, are no longer afraid of death. We leap at death. We willingly embrace it knowing that life awaits afterwards. He compared this to children playing with a lion, which you would only do if the lion was somehow made dead or powerless. I thought that was cool that Christ’s disciples being so unafraid of death proves the victory over death. Dale is an example of that. He doesn’t fear death.
But also, he talked about how demons and sin and Satan are driven away in the name of Christ. Athanasius, very accurately I think, notes that things that are not alive do not have power to drive out those things which do exist. So the force that is driven away is the force that lacks the power and is proven to be defeated. So by this he shows that death, Satan, and demonic forces are in their death throes and always flee from the name of Christ, which proves that their is life and hence power in His name.
I thought those were fun points!
No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this tonight.
What was for dinner?:
Leftover chicken and my remaining sweet potatoe. Then I had a beer and some cookies at Guy’s house. Good meals. I barely ate before that so today was relatively healthy (minus the cookies)
Song of the day:
Amazing Grace by John Newton – Dale and I sang this together so it gets the nod. I am glad that I have been learning to memorize older hymns so I could sing it with him. We only sang 3 of the 5 verses I know. But it was still good to just stop and sing with a brother in Christ.
Quote of the day:
“You cannot negotiate with a tiger when it has your head in its mouth. ” — Winston Churchhill
I do not know if this is a real quote or not, but it was in the movie The Darkest Hour with Gary Oldman that we watched at the Wilcox’s house. I found it a very vivid picture and relate very much to sin in my life. I’ve tried to sue for peace terms. I’ll give you some of what you want, if you’ll just let me have most of my freedom. But the tiger never is content to let me go and keeps chewing on my head until I perish completely.
Some elements in this world are just not to be negotiated with.
Prayer of the day:
Lord, all praise be to you for the encouragement of older saints who cling to your Word and rest in you. What a testimony they are to you and your victory over death. You took us out of the tiger’s mouth and delivered us from certain death. All glory, honor, majesty, dominion, and authority be yours now, forever, and evermore for this work!