Why I Write These:
These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
Judges 19:22 says: “While they were enjoying themselves, some of the wicked men of the city surrounded the house. Pounding on the door, they shouted to the old man who owned the house, “Bring out the man who came to your house so we can have sex with him.”
This is such a scary, scary verse. This is the Israelites here. Not the men of Sodom. But can you tell the difference between this and Genesis 19? This is the Israelites. The people whom God loved. Whom he liberated from Egypt. Whom he preserved in the desert. Whom he gave the rich land that he specially cultivated for them to live like kings in.
And they’ve fallen so, so far. They sound like Sodom and Gomorrah. Oh, this hurts. Because it just points to the fact that our human hearts are so naturally inclined towards evil. We fall away so quickly. We can so easily start sounding like the very detestable people that we ourselves are scoffing our heads at.
I don’t know where I’m doing this in my life, but I want to root it out, carve it out with a knife, and burn it on an altar before the Lord so that I may stand before him able to worship in the Spirit and in truth as John 4 commands me. I don’t want to sound like those secular beasts of society. But I’m so close to being one of them. It is only by God’s grace that I can claim such a difference to be grieved by this.
Favorite meeting of the day:
I got to have lunch with Cole last week. I missed him last week since he was out of town for a trip to Puerto Rico. It was good to have him back. He’s so awesome! A faithful brother who can laugh and talk about hard things with me. I don’t deserve his love and affection.
He likes Taggerung and the otters and hares, just like myself. I knew I liked Cole for a reason. He just picks all the right things.
Hardest part of my day:
I felt a bit unproductive today. I think a bit of low sleep, distractions on my mind, rain, and other factors just made it hard for me to focus on anything for extended portions of time. The only time I felt concentrated has been during my time in the Word this morning, lunch with Cole, and preparing a lesson for youth tomorrow.
I think that, in part, this points to the fact that I feel like being a pastor is where I want to go.
But at the same time, the Lord has given me work to do today. So I need to be doing it. It’s a joy to have work and to toil in His name. So I pray that I get productive the next few days.
Favorite moment of the day:
I have to admit that confirming a 2nd date today was probably the best part of my day.
But a close 2nd would be that I turned on some ads for an account I’ve been working on and the guy is already super happy with the results. Apparently, he’s getting traffic that seems to be spiking in a way that he’s not used to.
So, that’s cool!
What was the weather like today?:
Ugh. So much rain. If the Lord hadn’t promised to not destroy us with water again, I’d have concerns.
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
Probably just being a bit lackadaisical with work. I just didn’t feel productive, and I need to have enough focus and discipline to be more focused.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – Judges 20 & 21
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this today
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – No reading for this tonight.
On the Incarnation by Athanasius – I plan to finish this tonight.
No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this tonight.
What was for dinner?:
Enchiladas with some salsa
Song of the day:
Lemonade by Chris Rice – Because I have great optimism around some of the recent prospects in my life. Quite optimistic in fact. I’ve actually not realized how cynical of a dater I may have been in past relationships. I don’t feel cynical here at all.
Quote of the day:
“One of the great joys and trials is learning that you’ll always be moving at different paces, so learning to stay in stride at different paces is your goal.” — Cole Penick
I’m kind of paraphrasing him. I didn’t write down exactly what he said, so if it sounds weird that’s probably due to my fallible nature not his. But I liked this. I definitely am excited about pursuing Sarah, but also want to enjoy the individual moments that come up and just want to figure out what it is like to walk next to her. I think I’d enjoy that quite a bit.
Prayer of the day:
Lord, you have made me to work. Forgive me for not working well today. I confess that this is wrong and needs to come from a changed heart tomorrow. Please give me grace to see that you have not given me things idly and that I ought not be lazy towards them. Instead, help my heart to really praise you for all that you have given me to work and to put my hand towards. It is all towards you glory and praise in the end!