Why I Write These:
These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
Judges 6:6 says: “Midian so impoverished the Israelites that they cried out to the Lord for help.”
Why is this a thing? Why can’t we cry out to the Lord before we’re impoverished? I have to believe that we can do better through the Spirit given us. So this is a powerful passage to remind me to not cry out to him only once I have been ravaged by the sin I have left in my life that was supposed to be expunged.
I will expunge sin.
I will then give praise to God and cry out to him before I have been impoverished. I will seek to lean on him in all times. I am sure that this ought to be possible and will seek it with my every breath.
Favorite meeting of the day:
Went with Daniel Watkins to visit Dale Wright this evening. Dale is great, and it was fun to go with Daniel.
Dale got saved when he was 8 years old listening to Billy Graham sermons on TV. He can’t remember any of them, but the consistent Gospel message got him to believe. That’s incredible!
He asked us to read Psalm 103, and he really liked verse 19. What a guy! He knows so much, and he’s just an amazing example of how a man who does nothing more than be a mechanic his whole life can live a life that is worthy of the Lord and become an astute scholar of who God is.
Point in case, we went in and he was reading J.C. Ryle’s commentary on Luke. I mean, what an amazing testimony! The man is fighting cancer and this is how he spends his time. I hope to have half his faithfulness when I grow old.
Hardest part of my day:
Just waking up early. Thursday are my day to sleep in, and I woke up at 6AM. That’s kind of killer. I want to rest on those mornings. I did get a bit more rest, but it’s not the same as just sleeping until 7 or 8AM like I’d hope. Oh well, the Lord has been kind.
Favorite moment of the day:
Actually, got to go to the mall with Sarah again today. She was looking for a birthday gift and I happened to have an hour free. So I offered to go help her look. It was very fun!
She took my arm today as we were walking. I liked that. I honestly am so broken with what a healthy physical relationship looks like. Whether it happens with Sarah or not, I know that part of my redemption from my poor sexual past is that I will need to learn what it means to give myself to someone in a pure way. Even in a dating relationship, what does it look like to have healthy physical interactions?
I’m not entirely sure, but I do have hope that, maybe even with Sarah, that I can learn and the Lord can show me his mercy in that.
What was the weather like today?:
Rain. Again. When it wasn’t raining, it was just cold. But it mostly rained.
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
I’m getting to bed somewhat late. I’m worried I won’t get to the gym tomorrow since rest is ultimately one of the healthiest things both for my mind and, really, even for weight loss. So that’s unfortunate.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – 1 Samuel 1-3
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – He talked about the fact that we must never lose our sense of awe of God. I think that is important. We must never exegete the cross so much that we forget that God incarnate died on that cross in our place. We must never become so avid at making disciples that we forget we have been chosen to be disciples!
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – He talked about the fact that Jesus Christ is not only the catalyst for change, but also the means and the ends of the change. I think that’s profound. It sounds kind of like a “duh” statement, but it really stands out that we so quickly move away from Christ and we pursue the end of a habit as the end goal. But the point is not any of those things. The point is to grow closer to Christ and trust that this process will snuff out any dangerous habits we have formed.
No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this today.
What was for dinner?:
1 5-layer burrito and some nacho fries. I was happy I only ordered one burrito! I hadn’t had a lot to eat the rest of the day and was hungry, but knew I shouldn’t eat to much.
Song of the day:
Be Thou My Vision by Enfield Hymn Sessions – He must occupy my entire vision. To have anything else filling up my sight is folly.
Quote of the day:
“It is one thing to know that someone smiles on us; it is another to know that behind that smile was the greatest sacrifice that could possibly have been offered.” — Ed Welch
Just a quote that provokes praise in my life. Christ noticed me. He noticed me! What a smile he lavishes upon me that he didn’t just notice me, but he came to me and talked to me and is walking with me. Who am I that he should notice me.
Prayer of the day:
Lord, thank you for your smile to me. I am not deserving, but I most heartily accept your attentions even if they should bring with them the need for me to be remade in your image. That will be painful, but your smile and the act that lies behind the smile make it all worth enduring.