Daily Diary – 3/30/18

Why I Write These:

These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.

Daily Highlights:

Godly thought of the day:

Judges 7:5 says: “So Gideon took the men down to the water. There the Lord told him, “Separate those who lap the water with their tongues like a dog from those who kneel down to drink.”

This was a lesson in not always trusting the commentary in a Bible. My study Bible said that the men who lapped like a dog were remaining on their feet ready for any situation.

That’s just horribly wrong. That’s not the point of this passage. The point of this passage is that dogs are detestable. They’re not cute things in the Old and New testament. They’re the things that return to their own vomit. They’re scavengers. They’re barely better than dead lion, although only slightly better.

The point is the God is going to save the Israelites with the runts of the litters. The men who were so weak that they just fell down and dunked their heads in the pool from the march were unfit. But those who kneeled and had composure are sent home. I am a dog. I used to return to my own vomit of different sins. I still do upon occasion. But the Lord can use even a dog like myself and show me that it was better to be this than a dead lion who had no concept of hope! In me, he can rescue people and offer his deliverance, but it is not through any power of my own.

God is big enough to save with those who lap the water like dogs. But also I write this as a reminder that commentaries are not inspired and can, sometimes, be quite fallible. I am starting to find more value in doing good cross referencing than by the commentary I have. Additionally, reading the Bible regularly has made me much more astute. The Bible uses themes and imagery well throughout, and is good at evoking something specific to help you understand what it means to communicate. You just need to spend time learning it to find the depth of Scriptures.

Favorite meeting of the day:


We got together for our Good Friday service tonight and Brad was just on point tonight. I really liked what we had to say about the agony of Christ. He said that the word “agony” is the only time it is found in the New Testament and it highlights the different kind of death he suffered.

His point that other men faced their deaths differently was notable. He mentioned Stephen in Acts 7 and Socrates draining his hemlock without flinching. But these men died a different type of death than Christ did. Christ died a death of wrath and vengeance so that he could become a great high priest who could sympathize with us in every way. And through knowing our plight, he became worthy to deliver us from it.

Hardest part of my day:

Lesson planning has been consuming my time this week. I didn’t get to the gym again this week. I need to rest at some point. But I want to go. Tomorrow, I am going to go in the morning and get some workout in.

Favorite moment of the day:

Helped serve the Lord’s Supper tonight! That’s the first time I’ve ever done anything like that. I wanted to note it. It was a monumental opportunity to help facilitate the Lord’s Supper on Good Friday.

What was the weather like today?:

Really nice today! The sun was back out and it had a good Spring feel to it. A bit chilly by the end of the day, but not altogether awful.

Most unfaithful moment of my day:

I went to ice cream for Daniel Watkin’s birthday. I felt like I was a bit forceful in the conversations. I was in a boisterous mood and I can so easily come to dominate conversation. But life isn’t about me. I need to be better about trying to facilitate opportunities for others to shine. There were a few people who hardly said anything all evening, and it would have been more honoring for me to give them opportunities to participate in conversation.

What am I currently reading?:

Daily Bible Reading – 1 Samuel 4-7

Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this today.

Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.

Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – Wow, chapter 7 was really, really good! He talked about how Hebrews shows Jesus as the better option to everything! We must not equate love with getting what we want. Nor must we judge God’s justice.

We also must not ask “How can we do something?” But rather, we ask “For whom do we do this?” If we make God a “How to” book then he is just a celestial genie for our pleasure.

Finally, I ended up worshiping when he brought up Hosea 11 and God saying “I will not come in wrath.” Wow, wow, wow! That is just an amazing thing to contemplate.

No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this today.

What was for dinner?:

Um. Ice cream? I didn’t have anything else after lunch. Does the Lord’s Supper count as dinner? Doesn’t feel like it.

Song of the day:

Stricken, Smitten, and Afflicted by Fernando Ortega – The 3rd verse. My goodness. The weight of that is pretty crazy. How dare we think of sin lightly. It was anything light. Just because we do not bear that burden does not mean it was light. It is insulting to think that it did not cost a great, great cost. We just did not pay it.

Quote of the day:

“What was the grand contribution of the disciples to the Lord’s suffering? It was to be found drooling on themselves while Jesus prepared himself.” — Brad Wheeler

I end up paraphrasing a lot of these quotes. But this was so, so good. I had never thought that in this moment when Jesus is most needy and tempted to look for a way out, it is his own bowing to the Father’s will and his own faithfulness that completes the work.

The disciples could have prayed with him. They could have ministered to him. But just like us, they were found helplessly drained and without any life to give to the most important ministry of all time until Christ had done the work himself.

It made me think of the passage that says, “Wake up, sleeper, and rise from the dead and Christ will shine on you.” I think that’s in Ephesians 5, although that’s quoting the OT if I remember correctly.

But anyways, we were sleeping and Christ came to wake us when all we could do was drool on ourselves.

Prayer of the day:

Lord, you have done your work. It is time for me to arise, go forth, and proclaim my rising as I worship you, who first rose and conquered the grave that held my enslaved soul. Thank you that you agonized and fully experienced what humanity was all about by suffering the wrath of the Father. Thank you for submitting to the will of the Father and going forward to that end full of faithfulness and integrity. I have no hope if you do not. Lord, you did this in spite of the fact that we who would claim to love you most slept through the alarms and then scattered and abandoned you when you were in your moment of deepest trial. Thank you for being strong for the weak. Thank you for being alert for the inert. We are indebted to you in a way we can never fully express!      


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