Why I Write These:
These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
Ephesians 1:9 says: “to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment — to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ.”
Going to keep this all succinct to day since I need to go to bed. I just love that God is not slow. He is not tarrying unduly. He has a time and a plan, and these things will be fulfilled and all things will be brought to heel in their time.
Favorite meeting of the day:
Got to talk with a brother in Christ today at Mama C’s. I am humbled that he seems to find my company beneficial, and he is really interested in reading the Bible together and getting some discipleship that is more intentional. I’ve been kind of discipling him very informally, but he’s really struggling with some nasty things that are holding him back. We’re going to start trying to do more on Monday together, and I hope that I can help him feel reconnected to the body and to Christ, as I know that he just needs some brothers to pick him up and help carry him for awhile.
Hardest part of my day:
Probably right now. I just have felt rushed through my normal disciplines today. Didn’t really get a workout in this morning. Didn’t get a long time to reflect here in my journal and my prep for tomorrow is a bit rushed. Just feel a bit rushed. But that’s alright. Because the power in anything I do comes from the truth of God’s word and not my own magic formulas. I just need to rest.
Favorite moment of the day:
I don’t mean to write about Sarah every day just because it is exciting to be fascinated by someone. But she was working at Mama C’s when I went in today — totally unplanned. So I got to sit and work with her. I think I probably distracted her with my conversations, but I tried not to be totally insensitive to the fact that she was studying for some big tests.
But if was fun to just sit and be present with someone. I know it is early, but it felt very natural. I wasn’t tired of it when she left. I’m not going to be one to let my fantasies run away and play out a bunch of hypotheticals in my head that may never come. I want to enjoy the present reality, not what might happen. But I greatly enjoyed today and think it continues my optimism that there is something good worth pursuing here.
What was the weather like today?:
Not as rainy, but overcast and a bit cold.
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
I guess I’ll go with not getting up and getting to the gym. I probably could have done it. I think sleep may have been the right decision, but I’m not sure. And so since I have doubts, I’ll go ahead and say that I always need to be careful to not lose the discipline of keeping my body in shape. It is not the ultimate goal in life, but it helps my mind and ministry to do so. And it keeps me generally practicing discipline, which is a helpful thing in the life of a believer.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – 1 Samuel 15 & 16
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this today.
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – No reading for this today.
No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this today.
On the Bondage of the Will by Martin Luther – No reading for this today.
What was for dinner?:
I went to help the Wheelers move to a new house today, and so I grabbed a 4 for $4 meal from Wendy’s. Also, I had a bit of roast at the Watkins house after we moved things because they were watching the basketball game and I went to watch it there.
Song of the day:
Messiah / You’re Beautiful by Phil Wickham – Every once in awhile I come back to this song. The electronic instrumentation gives it a kind of ethereal feel to it and the steady strum always puts me in a mood where I feel the inevitability of what he is talking about. And the last stanza always makes me joyful.
Quote of the day:
“My wife and I don’t practice. We’re just trying things out right now.” — Isaac, a barista at Mama C’s.
Notable because this is how we talk about religion. Like a pair of clothes to be tried on. Will it be trendy enough? Will it make me look good? We ask all these questions, but we never deal in what is true. I hope I get the chance to talk to him more about these things.
Prayer of the day:
Oh, Lord. I need you. Desperately. Even in my best moments, which it feels like these last weeks have been so rich and exciting and good. Even there I need you. Open my eyes that I might see you moving. Still my heart that I might behold your wonders and gaze upon you. Keep my heart from its deceitful ways and uphold me by the strength of your hand.