Why I Write These:
These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
Judges 12:1 says: “The men of Ephraim called out their forces, crossed over to Zaphon and said to Jepthah, “Why did you go to fight the Ammonites without calling us to go with you? We’re going to burn down your hosue over your head.””
My goodness. Where were you, Oh Ephraim? You’ve done this twice and while Gideon was humble and allowed you to be spared, your insolence provokes no mercy this time. This time 42,000 of you die.
This is a reminder that we are not called to be glory seekers. We can’t just sit idly by on the sidelines and show up to claim glory when it all the sudden starts sprouting. No, we must be active in our faith. To be a griping moaner on the sideline is pitiful.
Oh Ephraim, your arrogance is folly and speaks of the evil that lies unchecked in your heart! May my own heart not be marked by this passive entitlement found in the Ephraimites, lest it cost me when I seek to come across my own fords in life.
Favorite meeting of the day:
Got to teach a workshop today. I think I did a solid job? I hope so! It was a long workshop. And we ended two hours early. I’d not be opposed to teaching again and making $400 in a day or so, but 8:30-4:30 is a long day. That said, I hope and think it was helpful and was fun to get paid to talk for the day!
Met one guy Tom, who I got to tell him a bit of why I do what I do and was able to share some of my faith with him. Particularly told him that I try to treat everyone with an inherent dignity because I believe they are made in the image of God. That simple act of faithulness is hard. Speaking is so hard sometimes. But I went into the day wanting to just do something faithful, even if small. So that was great to walk away and feel like I at least spoke a good word for Christ.
Hardest part of my day:
My legs are sore! I wa sstanding all day and I just started feeling not very confident in the afternoon. Also, my ideas for getting people into platforms didn’t go very well. I was bummed by that! I just didn’t think through some of those things very well, and it made for an awkward day!
Favorite moment of the day:
Probably getting to read through 2 John with the youth group. It was awesome to look at John’s greeting. Greeks with their “grace” and Jews with their “peace” meet only under the mercy of the cross. What an intro to his letter that he just lays at our feet!
What was the weather like today?:
So. Beautiful. Like, so good.
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
Recently I’ve been having a hard time identifying the sins in my life. I can think of them if I think for awhile, but it’s genuinely a struggle to see where they’re at. I really feel like this is a great season of faithfulness, but I know I can’t be done. I need to be proactive about realizing where sin resides in my heart so that I’m carving it out. If I wait for it to rear its ugly head so I find out, I’ve waited too long. But sometimes I have a hard time seeing it when it is in more subtler forms. For so long, it was so blatant in my pornography and sexual idolatry problems and how I even spoke to people. And I’m sure traces of those things still exist, but they’re largely disappearing rapidly in my life. So what are the subtle crafts of evil Satan will work? I do not know, but I must be vigilant.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – 2 Samuel 12-14
Dangerous Calling by Paul Tripp – No reading for this today.
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – No reading for this today.
No Place for Truth: Or Whatever Happened to Evangelical Theology? by David F. Wells – No reading for this today.
On the Bondage of the Will by Martin Luther – No reading for this today.
Princeps Fury by Jim Butcher – This was sooooooo good! I finished it tonight!
First Lord’s Fury by Jim Butcher – Had to start the first chapter tonight. Tavi is coming home. Can’t wait to see what he does here.
What was for dinner?:
A piece of pizza.
Song of the day:
Lost the Plot by Newsboys – I say this because it is is playing right now as I type this. But I also like that it highlights my current unfaithfulness that I listed above. This song crescendos with the main singer so excited about where he is at and eager to run after his new found faithfulness after shaking off apathy. But then the song ends with a downwards momentum where the singer grows comfortable once more and can’t move.
It serves as a stark reminder that I can’t, I mustn’t grow comfortable. Comfort is not the affordance of the Christian war on this soil the Devil clings to ferociously.
Quote of the day:
“God gives us what we need when we need it, but that’s not the same thing as giving us what we want when we want it.” — Daniel Watkins
I really like Daniel’s truths he delivers. He has an ability to just deliver powerful truth so quickly and succinctly. It’s impressive and I appreciate him quite a bit!
Prayer of the day:
Lord, growing a bit tired physically as I type this. Help me not to get tired of the beauty I see around me as I worship you. Help my heart to never grow fatigued by that! May I always live in awe. I know that’s the only way to protect my heart. Let me be undone as I see you descend upon your temple, and then may you once more touch my lips with the coals and choose your servant to serve. Here I am, Lord. Send me.