Daily Diary – 5/25/18

Why I Write These:

These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.

Daily Highlights:

Godly thought of the day:

Hebrews 10:26-27 says: “If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God.”

I don’t have much to say about this other than I read this with a man I disciple this morning. It hits like a brick. How often do I sin after knowing the truth of a sin? What does this say about what I think of Jesus? I know that ultimately the fact that I feel this verse in my soul is sign that it doesn’t finally condemn me. But I sin so often. I sin so regularly.

I know I can’t stop sinning. But the point of this verse is that we should not be allied to our sin. Willfull, knowledgeable sin should scare us. We should hate it. We should flee from it so strongly that we cannot think of pursuing something we know is wrong. As I was helping another think about the depth and reality of sin, this convicted me once more. I dare not treat Christ like an unholy thing and trample underfoot the one who sanctified me. I dare not despise the one I love and who has already loved me.

Favorite meeting of the day:

Meeting with Yan. Sometimes I’m surprised by how good of marriage advice I can give to someone. The Bible is wonderful at pushing us towards common, thoughtful, and wise application even into situations we don’t perfectly understand. There are aspects of marriage I can’t give advice to, but I’m often surprised at how clearly I can see what Yan and his wife are going through and speak to it.

Praise God that he and his wife are doing so much better!

Hardest part of my day:

Today was a very good day. I enjoyed it greatly. Hardest part would just be that I messed up some links in an email campaign that we were sending out. I don’t enjoy making mistakes, even if sometimes they can be genuine accidents.

Favorite moment of the day:

My goodness. Went to see the Hound of the Baskervilles today. It was hilarious. Utterly hilarious. Not only was I with good people, but I have not laughed that hard at things in a long time. Favorite parts were the joke about the puzzles, the fast-paced recap of part 1 of the play, and watching Stapleton die slowly. Very slowly. I’ve never seen someone act with only a hand so well!

What was the weather like today?:

A right pretty day, I thought.

Most unfaithful moment of my day:

Lust and my attitude towards work almost seem like part of my every day battle against the flesh nature in my soul. I don’t know that anything particular stands out there, but I also don’t remember anything else. I know it is summer and that is a season that makes the war against being lazy towards work and also to have purity of thought a hard season.

What am I currently reading?:

Daily Bible Reading – 2 Chronicles 32 & 33

Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.

Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave by Ed Welch – He has been talking about saying “no” to addictions. One of my favorite points is how rarely we are honest with our confessions. When’s the last time you heard someone confess sin and then admit they sinned because they liked it. We always talk about sin as if we don’t like it. But how can this be? How can we do something we despise so much? It’s not natural. In fact, it is so unnatural that we are better off to admit that we love our sin. It’s honest. And honesty provides opportunity for honest reflection, which actually allows us to evaluate our problem and remember that we are desperate.

Plus, if we pretend that we never liked our sin then we can stop remembering how much we must fight against it when we seem “well.” If we act like it was some abnormal aspect of our lives that we just stumbled into and now we’ve stumbled out of, then we’ll quickly think we’re okay and fine and don’t need God’s grace quite as deeply when we’re away from our addiction. Of course, this is the reason most relapses occur. We forget that the thing was never the problem, but that we are the problem and thus the problem is never finally dealt with.

I also like how he fights back against the idea that self-exhertion is not legalism. Some people say “let go and let God.” as if striving would violate the Gospel. Certainly if we overvalue our strivings, we can become antithetical to the Gospel. But more generally, striving is the evidence of the Gospel.

On the Bondage of the Will by Martin Luther – No reading for this today.

Holiness by J.C. Ryle – No reading for this today.

What was for dinner?:

Pig Sooie sandwich at Hammontrees along with sweet potatoe fries and some local root beer. Good meal with good friends before the play!

Song of the day:

Stricken, Smitten, and Afflicted by Fernando Ortega – Thinking about the weight of sin and how serious it is, I need to not think of sin lightly. For thinking of it lightly is to allow myself to trample Christ underfoot and treat a holy thing as unholy and not think much of it.

Quote of the day:

“I hate puzzles.” — Watson

This was a hilarious joke. They let a few jokes run on Family Guy style to great effect, and this was one of them. The awkward silences and the ongoing nature of him complaining about the mystery being like a puzzle was pure genius.

Prayer of the day:

Lord, you have done a holy thing in Christ and are sanctifying me though him. Let me not treat that lightly. Thank you for your Holy Spirit which does convict me of sin and helps me to remember that I cannot go on sinning after I know the truth. Lord, help me to fight because the truth is that this is a tough battle I am in. I love my sin. I like sinning. It feels good. I admit that I often like my sin because it makes me the master of my own pleasure, and I like to be in control of my own portion of joy rather than rely upon you for it. Forgive me for this, Oh Lord, and help me to joyfully be sanctified upon you and wait upon you rather than turning to things fashioned by my own hands.


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