Why I Write These:
These are written in honor of my grandfather, Leon Milton Buttermore, who has a memory that I am envious of, and I hope that by doing this I am able to be the kind of man who starts to treasure the things given him.
Godly thought of the day:
1 Thessalonians 5:5 says: “You are all children of the light and children of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness.”
I do not belong to the night. You can’t have me. Because he has me. I’m tired, yes. But I’m tired in a tower of refuge that provides the exact kind of respite that a weary soul needs. I will never be yours, Satan. I’m his inheritance. I will stay awake. It would be easy to fall asleep and not care anymore. But I will never do that. He is my help and I belong to the night no more. What a glorious verse.
Favorite meeting of the day:
Got to work with Luke Stanton at Mama Carmen’s for the first time in awhile. That was good to do!
Hardest part of my day:
Just feeling like I was drowning all day. Mostly because of some lingering sickness that seems to have mostly moved to my head. But also just still shaking off some apathetic weeks still. I think yesterday’s sermon forced me to wrestle with some really hard questions and I’m grateful for that. I need something to push me so that I’d really wrestle with God. I needed a wrestling match, and I think it may be a catalyst into a better season.
Favorite moment of the day:
Luke Stanton offered to pray for me after we ate. I love that. I never used to have that very often. I’m glad to have people who think to do that after a solid day of fellowship. It’s not enough to talk about God. It’s important to make sure we talk to God.
What was the weather like today?:
Was barely outside. Couldn’t tell you, really. Seemed sunny and nice.
Most unfaithful moment of my day:
Nothing pops out, although I’m certain there was something. But I tried to be faithful with what was before me.
What am I currently reading?:
Daily Bible Reading – Esther 6-10
Church History by Eusebius – No reading for this today.
On the Bondage of the Will by Martin Luther – No reading for this today.
Holiness by J.C. Ryle – I actually thought he phrased some things poorly but he asked a good question. Are you holy today? Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. Are you striving for holiness today. I actually thought a lot of the rest of the reading wasn’t as strong as some earlier stuff and he repeated some things. But that question will stick.
Don’t Waste Your Life by John Piper – No reading for this tonight.
Out of the Silent Planet by C.S. Lewis – Ransom’s commitment to going on no matter what his affections should change to was a timely thought to make sure that no matter how painful the journey, I should not be swayed by brief changes in affection. Rather, I should attach myself to convinction and reside in the center of that.
What was for dinner?:
Fajitas with Luke Stanton.
Song of the day:
When You Called My Name by Newsboys – I didn’t know what the calling meant and sometimes I’m still not sure. But I am glad that I was called by him, even if it feels daunting sometimes.
Quote of the day:
Can’t think of anything.
Prayer of the day:
Lord, thanks for one day of holiness. I will resolve to walk in the way of the righteouss. Help me to wrestle with you and be honest when I need to and may that lead me closer to you. Thank you for not letting me belong to the dark anymore. Even my darkest hour is brighter than what I used to know. It is a miracle that you come for me. Hold me fast, Lord, oh my help and my refuge!